ADULTING

WTF IS THIS?!?!?

This year I became the lovely, transitional age of 24. May I share that life has been rough as fuck! (excuse me for not posting in sooooo long)

A couple years ago, I was convinced that I had myself and life figured out. It wasn’t that I felt I had all the answers; No not at all. I just figured I had my footing and I wouldn’t be stumbling a whole not. The saying, “In life when you reach a new level, you meet a new devil,” is the realest way to put what has happened to me. Becoming an adult has to be one of the most difficult things to do and I understand now that most never actually achieve this. I’ve experienced problems in almost every area of my life and it seems that they domino off of each other. I feel completely lost and that is far from where i was standing only a couple years ago. It’s like I turned around and could not recognize myself, others, or my life.

To make my transition smoother, the first thing that needs to be done is rebuilding self. How can one address life situations clear and prepared without being balanced internally? Honestly, it’s just NOT possible. I’ve shied away from meditating and reading (which is a form of meditation) and that has really gotten me off center.  I don’t spend enough time reflecting and getting closer to myself which in turn has disrupted my relationship with God. NOTHING should come in between that! Problem recognized to be fixed ASAP. Watching what I consume is very important as well. Staying  healthy mind, body, and soul is important for one to remain strong and assured. 

As far as life situations, controlling one’s surroundings, including people and places, plays a huge role. Though one does not always foresee on coming circumstance, you can limit the level of unwanted interaction if you stay away from people and places which auras do not agree with where and what you want in your life. It’s truly that simple. Change will be blatant and apparent once these actions are taken.

With that being said, I will reiterate ,

“In life when you reach a new level, you meet a new devil.”

Life is going to continue to through us curve balls, BUT if we know self and keep self up the transition will be way more easy. Yes we will become uncomfortable at times, but change is UNCOMFORTABLE. 

Keep putting out the vibes you wish to receive. Be mindful of your surroundings (PEOPLE AND PLACES!!!!) Pay attention to and choose your WORDS carefully because they have POWER. Love yourself the way you deserve to be loved; loving others will be more effective, and you will attract the love you long to find.

This a message to those who are having difficulties ADULTING like I am (as well as reminder to myself.) Don’t be so hard on yourself. Take everything a step and day at a time. Do not limit yourself. Do let anyone steal your light. Go forth, have joy, and be prosperous!!!! Peace is returning to my strong mind, beautiful body, and fragile soul. Namaste.

-Indigo Love

 

 

 

 

November 15, 2016 by therealindigolove Categories: Embracing Your Light, Personal Growth, Plaguing Thoughts, UncategorizedTags: adult, adulting, balance, body, challenges, God, growth, health, learning, light, love, maturity, Mind, rebuild, selflove, soul, spirit, spirituality, transformation, transition Leave a comment

Rams Go Ham!

I’m an Aries tried and true. Here’s a little Zodiac info about my fellow Rams. 

Aries women embody passion, fearlessness, and have a huge appetite for love. An Aries can walk into a room with electrifying aliveness. It’s pretty impossible not to respond to this vivacious energy. Aries thinks like an adult but runs around like a free child. They have a good heart. Aries hate taking directions from people and much prefer to do it themselves or figure it out on their own. Aries are both aggressive and tender, a leader and one who acquiesces, and is both practical and creative. Aries always seem to be battling with themselves over some inner issue. But In the end this only makes them stronger. Aries are headstrong, quick tempered, and easily offended. They are spiteful; you hurt them, they’ll forgive. But they will make sure you feel the pain you gave them. Aries smile more than they cry, give more than they take, and love more than they hate. Aries females can be some of the kindest women you know…until you cross the line. Playing with an Aries emotions is like playing with fire. If its humanly possible, an Aries would be on fire if they are REALLY pissed off.

Aries are great at ignoring your whole existence. They can like you one minute and the next minute they may not. Aries can fall in love quickly and out of love even more quickly. Aries females love surprises. It’s a great way to make them fall in love with you.  Aries are very direct, to put it mildly. No Aries woman will like to be kept waiting. Deceptiveness and deviousness are entirely foreign to them. Aries cannot abide deception or games; they require direct communication and to know exactly where they stand. The idea of being faithful for life appeals very strongly to the romantic Aries. An Aries will shower their partner with plenty of affection because when they care about someone they will do anything for them. The Aries woman loves to be shown appreciation by her partner at all times. Aries desire affection and loyalty in relationships. This encourages them to be confident. Aries women never jealous but always possessive, yet does not like being possessed by another.

These are just somethings about Aries that are especially true to my character. Thanks for reading. Peace remains in my fiery soul. Namaste.

– Indigo Love

August 17, 2014August 17, 2014 by therealindigolove Categories: Embracing Your LightTags: affectionate, aries, astrology, child like, direct, emotions, fire sign, kind, love, loyal, passionate, possessive, ram, romantic, stubborn, temper, universe, zodiac Leave a comment

Stay A While (interlude) – Indigo Love ft. Darien Woods on guitar

https://soundcloud.com/therealindigolove/indigo-love-featuring-darien

this was the first time I ever free-styled like back in January. This is the raw no edit version of it. I got in front of the mic and the guitarist pressed record. I sang straight from my heart. It’s something light. I hope you enjoy it! Be on the look out for more music soon. Share it if you like it! Peace and Blessings…

– Indigo Love

August 8, 2014 by therealindigolove Categories: Embracing Your Light, Indigo Love's Music, Save the MusicTags: freestyle, guitar, heart, interlude, light, love, music, new artist, passion, peace, singer, singing, stay, vocals Leave a comment

Guidance for the Grasshopper

Through God all things are possible. Man was created in God’s image, so we are like God but we ARE NOT THE CREATOR. I said it once I’ll say it again. This means that nothing is impossible for One to accomplish whether within or in the world.

I never thought I’d see the day that my brother would help me see the way. Give me guidance.
He’s always been my ultimate comfort and I realize everyday how strong of a person he is. If I don’t have anyone in this world I know for a fact that I’ll have him. He is so many things I cannot describe. He is more than special to me and I praise the Creator for blessing me with a brother such as he.

I’ve been falling down and picking myself back up so many times in these pass few days. This last fall was a hard fall, but my brother picked me up and dusted me off and pointed me back in the right direction. The outside world is so demon filled. The people in it only feed the bad wolf and never the good wolf within. If the good wolf is fed it isn’t much. People will make you their punching bag because they hold in so much turmoil that when they blow even the things that have nothing to do with you come spilling out. If you take it in and become so affected, evil wins.
India Arie said it best in one of my favorite songs Get it Together. The line goes:

One shot to your heart without breaking your skin. No one has the power to hurt you like your kin.

(Much more of the words that follow fit the situation, but I won’t get into it just listen to it lol.)

DO NOT GIVE UP ON YOURSELF NO MATTER WHO ELSE HAS.

My brother is into video games heavy. So, to pick me up we played some cool games. He showed me a game for Play station 3 called “Journey.” This game was amazing. The sand glittered. The scene was serene and peaceful. The sun was beautiful in day and the moon was at night. There was not much direction. The player has to figure out what to do and where to go on their own. A lot of your direction comes from following the light. You stop at many points to sit and read tablets. You sit with crossed legs in a light and a tall figure that looks like you shows you what took place in that land that you are traveling through. The people there were building machines. There were cloth creatures that gave the people energy, strength, light and flight. These same cloth creatures help you along the way. You find out that the people became greedy and want the cloth creatures for themselves and they turned against each other. They fight with these machines they built against each other in war above their own land. This is why the land is in ruin. At many points you pass these small stone obelisk that come from the ground. In certain places there are fields of them. These are graves of the people. You are journeying to a mountain that is way in the distance with a light shooting from the top. This is a mountain you see from the start of the game. The peace is kept through your journey for much of the time. You run across a few lone strangers that help you along the way.They are random and different each time you run across one. In my journey, I met 3 of them. There is a time when you must dodge these evil machines the people of the land had created. There is even another time when you are exposed to extreme weather conditions and it becomes hard for you to travel across the land and then you have to dodge the creatures while trying to get through the winds and snow. I even got attacked by one of the creatures and my scarf got torn. The scarf you wear becomes elongated throughout your journey. When you find a certain light your scarf extends. It helps you to move faster and helps you to fly. It gets it’s energy from the cloth creatures that aid you in your quest. Also, when you and another player are near each other you two can fly forever without having to re-energize because you feed off of each other’s energy. You help each other fly higher with this energy as well. There comes a point in your journey where you have come so far and you can see the mountain getting closer. The weather conditions are worsening and you’re tired and frosty and you pass out. It looks like you died lol. Then, either 3 or 4 of those figures like the one that showed you the story of the land through activating the tablets, revive you and show you the story of your journey. Each obstacle you face and your friends you’ve met along the way.  The last depiction is of you kneeling down I guess when you fell. And then you shoot up into the sky, but you have to keep flying and can’t stop. The creatures you have dodged are in the beam you’re shooting through as well but you just keep going up. You come to a beautiful place in the sky where the cloth creature flow freely. The sky is blue and you are on your way up to the mountain you’ve been approaching since the start of the game. You get to the mountain. You think about how many of those grave obelisk you’ve seen. They were fewer and fewer as you got further and further and closer to the mountain. You had made it and they didn’t. You walk through the mountain into the light and disappear. Then it showed a light shooting through the sky like a star backwards from the journey you had made. My brother turned to me and said, “Remember that light is you.”  And the light ends up back at start where you began.I swear with everything in me I was so amazed. My brother had reinstated a valuable lesson within me. My younger brother was my teacher in that moment. He’d showed me this game on purpose. He’s very intuitive my gosh lol.

This is life. It gets hard. Everyday won’t be easy. You may feel lost. You may meet a few people along the way to help you. Things or people may knock you down and hurt you.There is beauty in your journey. You are the light that makes it to the mountain top, but you have to stay strong and determined. Divine intervention is an aid when you’ve done everything in your power to move on. The universe is on your side. Just keep going forward to that mountain. Then life will end and begin again. Peace within me has been restored and instilled by my brother who I love dearly. Namaste.

 

– Indigo Love

July 30, 2014July 31, 2014 by therealindigolove Categories: Embracing Your LightTags: bond, Brother, conscious, determination, found, Get It Together, God, grasshopper, Guidance, India Arie, Intuition, journey, life, light, lost, love, music, One, Siblings, strength, video games, will Leave a comment

Where for Art Thou…

Well… It’s late and I’m awake… thinking. What’s new. I seem to have gotten myself into a situation. Seems to me that the situation just came upon me. Not that I was forced into it, no. I welcomed said situation with open arms. Now I feel like a passenger on a train ride. A passenger who knows sorta where she wishes to go, but is not quite sure of the destination she will arrive at. Things like this are frightening. The unknown. Ignorance breeds fear though fear is such a hindrance. I came to a point in my life recently where I had began conquering my fears. Great fears that have long followed me. Love gave me that courage to spread my lovely wings and fly without caring much for the hurt of what it’d feel like falling. When I fell though, it hurt like a bitch, but I survived. I mean I’m here. The strong fall, but stand again. Funny, it is love that has reinstated a fear I thought I had overcome. No, I guess I merely faced it, but that was all. JUST FACED…smh Love is a delicate entity it is. Now this train is speeding up and the view is becoming blurred, as I wiz by the scene. My eyes are closed and the car is shaking for fear of my heart breaking. Vulnerability. To be vulnerable and exposed is so earth shaking. It’s like being naked in front of a room full of people. I mean imagine it is. I never experienced such a situation and hope that I will always be able to say I never did lol. BUT it’s understood the uncomfortable place in life I’m in. I thought it would be as simple as just giving into your heart. A sweet surrender. BUT oh man was I wrong…. I just don’t want to think myself into becoming so scared that my eyes stay closed and I drift off into a dream and end up in a crazy place when I awake from this anxiety ridden ride of mine. It’s funny I used a train ride to describe my situation and I love the train. It’s one of the most comfortable ways to travel. Peace remains within me. Namaste.

-Indigo Love

July 18, 2014August 2, 2014 by therealindigolove Categories: Plaguing ThoughtsTags: anxiety, courage, destiny, emotions, faith, fear, hope, insomnia, journey, life, love, love child, love life, namaste, peace, ride, romeo, thoughts, train, unknown, wings Leave a comment